Blazing maze

You gave me your heart to protect from harm and pain.
But, I let my guard down and, dropped it and now it is stained.
Because of the stain your love has turned to hate,
and I have cheated the stars and fate.
Now I’m looking for away to mend your stained heart.
I’m looking for the way but, I just don’t know were to start.
If only you could see into my mind you would see what I think of you.
If you could see into my heart you would see how much I love you.
If you could see into my soul, I could reverse the hate.
Because I know you were born to be my soul mate.
I know I was the one who forced the blindness into your eyes.
if you can’t find it in you to see through I will be the looser for all my lies.

Now I find my self in a burning maze.
I just can’t think because my head is in a daze.
I can’t find my way out as all turns are dead ends.
Is this real or is it pretend.
At one time it was as easy as a straight path.
Now it is a horrible wrath.
I know there is a way out for I see glimpses of light.
But this struggle to find my way out has become a bloody fight.
Although there is some fight left in me because I remember the past.
If the momentum of this struggle persists I feel I will not last.
My hart and soul has become blooded and weak from this lasting contest.
As I get hit again I wipe the blood and continue forward knowing a need a rest.
On the outside I function just the same.
But on the inside I’m full of pain and shame.
This is not a constant this burning maze of mine.
For it is in my head there for could just be a sign.

Yes this is a sign and it is only half real.
A conflict between the emotions on the outside and the true emotions on the inside that I feel.
This burning maze that consumes me day after day can be put out.
I just have to find the right rout.
Just as I speak this last phrase again it blows up in my face and I realize it is just a test.
And now I a strange calm comes over as I just do my best.
As it swallows me as I contest.
For one day I will be back with strength in my fight.
I will extinguish this blazing maze and make every thing right.