I felt like writing

A poem I felt like writing
To let out a bit of the pain
I hope it doesn’t stain,
I want to see a sun rise
Want to see what's on every ones mind

Soon ill be gone, a runaway
Without a trace, searching for myself
Groping in the dark, looking for a light
One day ill be gone,
Don’t search for me then, don’t search for me then

Can’t sleep at night, empty thoughts in my mind
Just one day, that’s all I want
One day without the pain
A day of rejoice, a day of light
Before it’s too late, too late to love

Sleeping awake, turning pages,
Another hour on the computer, and I never tire
Another day goes by, another night goes by
Slow and steady, the time goes by
Who asks what happened, who knows what’s in our head
No one cares, no one cares

Soon ill be gone, a runaway
Without a trace, searching for myself
Groping in the dark, looking for a light
One day ill be gone,
Don’t search for me then, don’t search for me then

Eyes burning, head spinning
Another tear on the floor, another smear on my mind
"Don’t scream at me please", another cry for help
Another cry for help, another knock on the door;
No one peering out, just the loud silence of a heartbreak
Just a game I play, with memories for opponents

Wake up screaming, the game got out of hand;
Sweat trickling down, damp shirt
A gulp of water, a deep breath
Rest yourself, nothing here but darkness
"Fill this room with the light in your eyes", a hopeful desire

Soon ill be gone, a runaway
Without a trace, searching for myself
Groping in the dark, looking for a light
One day ill be gone,
Don’t search for me then, don’t search for me then

Promised you a heart you promised to keep
Was promised a world, now I can’t even see
"It would look wonderful on her", I’d think to myself
Then it comes crashing down, reality breaks a beautiful thought

One step at a time, a baby I become
Crawled up like a cat, hug a pillow and say my good nights
Kiss a picture and shed a tear
Blow a kiss and feel the fear

Soon ill be gone, a runaway
Without a trace, searching for myself
Groping in the dark, looking for a light
One day ill be gone,
Don’t search for me then, don’t search for me then

Opening up, what can I say?
Tell me something that will not fail
Give me a clue; I don’t know what to do
Wish me luck, for now I go
Say good bye and I will bow

Now my head hurts, now ill fly
Eyes are wet and skin is dry
All I got is love, love is all I got
Love that can change the world, something that I wreak
Have to seek, seek this love that is so very meek

Soon ill be gone, a runaway
Without a trace, searching for myself
Groping in the dark, looking for a light
One day ill be gone,
Don’t search for me then, don’t search for me then

Now I'm gone, a runaway
Without a trace, lost in the search
Groping no more, looking but now I'm blind
Screaming in silence
Now I’m gone, now I’m gone