Its about me & my past, how i was before I had God in my life. |
Down is not how I want to be seen I’m tired cause I lived that way a long time, Inside I was unpure and unclean But I looked like I was walking a straight line; I did good for somebody else Cause for me I didn’t care, The way I was seen is what counts But now to me that wasn’t fair; I took it nicely for so long Then I started to get mean, I thought finally I was strong But I still kept so much unseen; My family was my weakness But I didn’t want them to know, So I ran inside when I got the chance So my hurt wouldn’t show; I wanted so much to get away from them Cause I didn’t want to hurt anymore, So to Job Corps I did run And nobody I cared for; I let nobody get close Cause I didn’t want any pain, That’s the life I chose So in the end I was alone; I had no one to go to So finally I broke down, I didn’t know what to do Cause I didn’t want anyone aroun’; I cried so many tears But still I kept all my pain, On my shoulders from all 18 years That I started to go insane; But now I’m letting it all go After ending up in jail, Like I said, I’m tired of living that low And not being able to stand up when I fell; So this goes out to my family I love them with all my heart, Now I can live with them happily And the Lord told me that that is a start; You need love in your life And also the Lord, To get rid of the strife And the pain that was stored; I can pick up my head And wipe the tears away, I thank the Lord I’m not dead And that I can look forward to a brand new day; I’m thanking Him for everything That He’s done for me, He took me under His wing Cause it was time for me to see; That I can’t do it alone I need to stop running away, I have to face up and own My bright and shiny new day; Cause my days can’t always be dark No matter how much pain I’m in, On me I got to let the Lord make His mark Instead of letting the devil feed me sin; I got to love who I am And trust me now I do, No more living in shame Because nobody knew; I’m gonna let myself be known And that I’m gonna follow the Lord, Cause my mind was blown By the book of His Word; It answered all my questions And gave me a new beginning, All my pain were lessons To teach me about sinning; So when I get out to be with my family I will have my faith, I’ll be able to walk around happy With a REAL smile on my face! THANK YOU LORD!!! Monique Ozuna |