What am I to do?

Here I am, still far away,
Watching the nights pass, each followed by day,
Whatever happened? I really don't know,
How did all this happen? Where did all the love go?

I'm lost here, lost without you,
What's going on around me? I haven't a clue,
Deep inside, I feel so insecure,
I'm searching for someone, who me, can cure…

How we came to this I don't understand, yet,
But I feel it'd be easier if I'd just forget,
I feel I can put all of this behind me,
Because no longer a future with you can I foresee.

Nothing's the same like it was before,
I'm so confused; don't know what's going on anymore,
I wish I could just turn my back on you,
But even that isn’t easy for me to do.

The night sky seems so sad,
Feeling so lonely, it hurts so bad,
The stars in the sky have lost their spark,
My life all of a sudden has become so dark.

What am I to do? I really don’t know,
I feel so empty, why does it have to be so?
I just wish it would all go away,
Because it's eating me inside, day by day.

I hate this feeling, that I feel deep inside,
It scares the hell out of me, and forces me to hide,
To hide from you, and my fears of losing you,
Because that's one thing, I don't want to do…

I don't want to lose you, not this way,
You're the sunshine, that brightens my sky, so gray,
I don't want to lose you because of uncertainty and fear,
Not an angel, who lives in me and is to my heart so dear.

But then again, what am I to do?
How do I say I love you, but don't know if I can be with you?
I'd rather you hate me, then break your pure heart,
Because you mean so much to me, you're my greatest part…

I'll always love you, even if we part one day,
Because forever and always, in my heart you'll stay,
No matter what happens, you'll always be my soul,
Because without you, I'll never be whole!