Everything i hate...

everything i hate,
is everything i am ,
and tho this may surprise you
its not a pity scam

behind the smile from ear-to-ear
and behind my joyful laugh
there is a girl who hates herself
more than anyone could grasp

i hate my mother because she left me
to deal with all the pain
thats comes with seeing my father drunk...
i'll never be the same

i hate my father because he scares me
when hecomes home and he falls down,
and although outside i am smiling
on the inside there's a frown

i hate the boy who had my heart,
and i'll hate him more each day
he made me cry and hurt me more
than any words could ever say

i hate the way i live my life
im always looking down
but im hoping i will find someone
who will turn my world around : )