The Humor of Time

I wonder why the sky is grey today, It seems like the same day last year was too blue.
A year as passed since I have seen you, and for once in my life I feel my time and spirit split in two.
Where is the light that I have always dreamed about,
where are the dreams I plan to follow?
Why am I so confused in this world and where's it all taking me to?
365 days ago I was 1300 miles away from here, everything was different. I was sad again but not like this.
The weather seems to reflect my sorrow, as if it has tampered to my soul. Why am I so really sad out here?
Where does all the darkness come from,
where do all the nightmares flee?
Why are the reaches of my mind almost the scariest place to be?
Where are all my day dreams and wishes,
why do things make it so I can't see?
Where do all the miles and minutes run too from my life.
I live and let live,
I cry and am cried about.
I wish and dream, and hope others find the way.
I help but can't be helped, it seems,
And never cry over most things.
And deep down all my insides are lurching.
Where did all the sadness come from,
why did all my joy go away?
Why does it feel like I can't make it go away?
I will change my thoughts now,
find away to get my hopes back.
And I will become free!
I will never give in to sadness,
I will find my joy till the day,
that you and I can come together.
I will make the miles and minutes count,
I will change my life around.
Watch me let my body mind and soul,
Finally free again,
at last free again.
Free.