where am I going

Just as I think I have made the right decision I find my self more lost then what I started off as.

Something that was so right at the time has turned out to be so wrong, it started out to be some harmless fun but to look back it has been nothing but a destructive path I have been leading.

Being fourteen and no responsiblity now twenty two nothing has changed God I wish this was not true how did I get to this point in my life??


Wait..... things have changed I am a mother and am fighting with addictions that are a lot stronger then I am. Been sober for a while but can't take it no longer dug my self a hole nearly six feet under, the rate I am going i'll be there sooner then I should be

I know right from wrong why can't I live my life that way? if i could just confess all my sins it would all be washed away. We all know, I know if I would fess up I would lose everything and everything I mean my beautiful baby boy, all that I have left teach me not to lie, to grow so I can find my way