You can't lose anymore

Make an effort –
Shoot myself in the foot.
Walk on water –
Drown in clouds
You’ll never know –

Happiness is a sliver of wholeness –
Completion that I cannot grasp –
Fulfill in me, fulfill me –
Follow the last glazed path.
You’ll never know the lies beneath.
Ding-dong – the reaper’s here
Call your mama to say the last prayer.
Grim is her face and slim is your chance.
Don’t hope to escape, hoping gets you nowhere.
But hope for your life – Bet on your death.
What led you here? Seek the answer.
Seek it with all your mind – heart?

Stab me one more time –
Can it hurt anymore than the last?
And if I’m already drained of my blood?
Then, what is this that boils withing me?

I rock in my corner
Cry myself to sleep.
Make me whole,
Make me complete.

Those closes to me –
Whisper behind my back –
Believe I’ve gone insane.
My doubt in this is fading.

Wear myself out by saying –
“I’ll show you!”
Wear myself down and say
“I swear it’s not on purpose!”

Do a little dance –
Fall off the edge
Sing a little song –
Swallow a fat bee.
Am I going crazy?

-Sigh-