Screams

Sometimes I don’t know where I stand
Feels like I am on sinking sand
See their hearts, hear their screams
And know they are calling for me
Helped so many and lost a few
Some I know, their lives are through

My eyes are wet but no tears come
Have none left and I can not run
All I know is what I’m supposed to do
Yet so many times I feel like I can’t go through
I feel alone so far from help
I stand alone and yell to myself

My heart is tired, and my spirit is weak
I can’t even stand on my own two feet
In the end my life will pass looking upon my heart to see
Too many scars and no hands to heal me
Maybe in death I will find my peace
Maybe in death this pain will cease

Who am I that so many want and so many cry?
For then they run away because they are scared of the love inside
What they feel is not a mistake
And yet they run because fear is all they will ever take
So used to the crap that this life has served
I offer them something that they think they don't deserve

Yet even though I push them to see
I still see them dying in front of me
So tired and torn, how do I go on?
And yet I fight... I have no choice
Must heal the pain in their crying voice
And in the end you will understand
What you left and what you can never have again

Gave you many chances yet you threw them away
And there you stand crying today
In your pain you don’t feel my arms
You are alone not safe from harm
It’s a choice that was made as you die to your love


I have walked away from many like that
And once they understand that they want to come back
But the door is closed and locked away
Should have took my love but you didn’t and now it's fading away

Now all I feel is hate, pity, and sorrow for you
'Cause it’s the life you choose to lead
Rather live in an excuse than fight to be free