Demons

The sky's clear today, nothing like my mind
Resentment and confusion cloud me inside
Is it a sign of the times or just a way
Of telling myself that I can't hide this pain
I don't even know why I'm hurting anymore
But I rest assured that I can't take much more
I light a smoke, but this nicotine don't work like it used to
It used to help but now there's just no use to it
So here I go, put my pen to paper and let go
To let you know I'm still breathing
A good way to start a new day
But when it all comes down to it they're all the same
A new day to contemplate the mistakes I've made
In this life, if I died tonight would I be saved?

So here I am, wondering again
Will a day come when I can hold my head up high
So damn lost, but still so damn defiant
Will I ever let these demons die

Silence is golden, but it's so damn hard to find
Even more so when you're so fucked up inside
I know there's brighter days a while away
But the light at the end seems miles away
A way out isnt what I need
What I need's a way to pick up the pieces of what I did
Somehow put 'em together and make something whole
And find myself before I lose control
My heart's here with these words, and with this beat
My heart's here as I walk down these Pittsburgh streets
But to make something of it, this is all I've got
And it can't be good enough to make ends meet
Cuz there's thousands of kids that have dreams to be
The next millionaire rockstar or a dope em-cee
They pour their lives into what they believe
But the road to success is paved with broken dreams

So here I am, wondering again
Will a day come when I can hold my head up high
So lost, but still so defiant
Will I ever let these demons die

I'm still waiting for my day to come
I can't let go, I'm holding on to
The one chance that I might really have
To be someone

So here I am
(Still waiting for my day to come)
Will a day come to hold my head up high
(I can't let go, I'm holding on to this)
So lost, but still so defiant
(The only chance that I ever really had)
One day I'll let these demons die