NOT NOW, NOT ANYMORE...

NOT NOW, NOT ANYMORE...


I USED TO ALWAYS SEE YOU
AS SOMEONE I NEED TO PROTECT.
I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU HURT,
OR SUFFER ANY HARDSHIPS.
I WANTED TO DO EVERYTHING FOR YOU.

AS YEARS WENT BY,
YOU GREW UP TO DEPEND ON ME.
FOR ALMOST ANYTHING,
YOU WOULD RUN TO ME.
I FELT PROUD,
I FELT HOW IMPORTANT I WAS TO YOU.
YOU WOULD ALWAYS CALL MY NAME.

BUT THINGS HAVE CHANGED,
AND I HAVE SEEN YOU WEAK.
YOU NEVER LEARNED TO FEND FOR YOURSELF.
YOU COULDN'T STAND ALONE.
I'VE SEEN YOU MAKE SOME DECISIONS,
A LOT OF THEM ON YOUR OWN.
BUT MOST OF THEM
BASED ON HOW YOU GOT USED
TO HAVING ME ALWAYS PICK UP PIECES YOU'VE LEFT.
IT DOESN'T MATTER TO YOU IF YOU FAILED, OR IF SOMEONE WOULD GET HURT.
YOU DIDN'T CARE
IF IT WOULD BRING ANY GOOD OR NOT.
YOU BECAME SO USED
TO JUST CALLING ON ME FOR ANYTHING,
FOR EVERYTHING.

NOW I SEE
THE BIGGEST MISTAKE I HAVE EVER DONE.
I MADE YOU WEAK,
I MADE YOU FRAIL.
I MADE YOU IRRESPONSIBLE,
I MADE YOU TOO DEPENDENT.
I MADE YOU DESTROY YOURSELF.
AND I WATCHED ALL THIS HAPPENING
STILL UNSURE IF I SHOULD LEAVE YOU ALONE,
STILL UNABLE TO LET YOU BE,
STILL WANTED YOU TO CALL ON ME.
AND ALL BECAUSE OF TOO MUCH LOVE FOR YOU,
I HAVE DESTROYED THE YOU
THAT YOU WANTED TO BE.
I MADE YOU INTO SOMEONE I WANTED,
IRONICALLY SOMEONE I DIDN'T WANT AT ALL.

FOR I HAD ALL GOOD INTENTIONS
JUST BECAUSE I LOVED YOU MUCH.
BUT YOU BECAME IDLE,
YOU LEFT SCHOOL,
YOU HAD VICES,
YOU LIED AND YOU STOLE FROM ME.
YOU LIED TO OTHERS
SO THAT YOU WOULD LOOK GOOD TO THEM.
YOU WERE UNDER TO MUCH PRETENTIONS
THAT EVEN I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE YOU.

AND NOW,
EVEN IF IT'S TEARING MY HEART APART,
I'M WILLING TO BEAR
WHATEVER HURT I FEEL.
YOU ARE STILL YOUNG,
AND I AM WILLING TO RISK
NOT BEING THERE WHEN YOU CALL ME.
IF YOU ASK,
I WILL REFUSE,
I WILL NOT GIVE.
I WILL STAND FIRM THIS TIME,
I WILL NOT BEND.
THERE IS STILL TIME
FOR ME TO SET THINGS RIGHT.
THERE IS STILL TIME
FOR YOU TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT.
YOU HAVE TO LEARN
AT THIS LATE AGE,
CAUSE YOU'RE STILL YOUNG
AND THE FUTURE AHEAD YOU IS LONG.
CHANGE YOUR LIFE,
MAKE IT FRUITFUL,
MAKE IT PROSPER,
BE A BETTER PERSON,
BE THE BEST YOU WANT TO BE.
SET YOUR MISTAKES
AS PAST LESSONS.
WORK HARD FOR A WONDERFUL FUTURE.
CAUSE WHEN YOU CALL FOR ME,
WHEN YOU NEED SOMETHING,
I WON'T BE THERE NOW,
NOT ANYMORE.
BUT I'LL BE WATCHING YOU.

I WANT YOU TO LEARN
LIFE'S LESSONS ON YOUR OWN.
AND WHEN YOU'VE DONE,
WHEN YOU'VE BECOME RESPONSIBLE,
WHEN YOU'VE YOU'VE REALIZED
YOU HAVE MUCH TO OFFER LIFE BY YOURSELF,
WHEN YOU'VE SEEN
ALL YOUR TALENTS AND POTENTIALS,
WHEN YOU HAVE NOURISHED YOURSELF,
I WILL BE BACK
TO BE WITH THE NEW YOU.
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.
AND SO FORGIVE ME
IF I TOOK THIS CHANCE AWAY FROM YOU BEFORE.
FORGIVE ME,
I HAVE TO LET YOU BE.