Depressed In My Head

Is it me or is it you?
I just have to know because I don’t know what is true.
I’m confused and I feel like I’m alone..
My words are strong but I feel like they are unknown.
You look in my eyes and then enter my world.
But my words are so deep you loose your path and then spin out of control…
Wondering days… and wondering nights.
And I still haven’t found true love in my life.
But I won’t stop looking…
Wishing that one day my love would soon come find me…
I am just a helpless young man inside his own busy body.
You see the truth… and you see my soul…
If you want to know the truth then look inside my world.
I wish I were gone… I wish I could just run…
But the temptation is so strong it seems to be flooding my soul…
I’m confused… cannot get my words straight.
I have to find a way to get back to my old ways..
I’m running… away from all of my pain..
Denying the truth.. because to me… it doesn’t matter anyway.
I don’t care… what anyone says..
I can do what I want…
I can live my own way..
I don’t need anybody.. Everybody can just leave me alone.
Leave me in peace so I can become a hermit and live beside the lonely and quiet seas..
I wish I knew my destiny… so I didn’t have to live this way..
But everything is just so disturbing.. It’s depressing the hell out of me..
I have to get to the matter.. The matter at hand.
I have to fight this battle..
I have to find my own way..
I need help.. I can’t do this by myself.
I’m depressed… and I don’t want to tell..
Is this a good thing.. Am I suppose to feel this way?
Someone give me an answer…
Because I feel like I’m about to go crazy.
Hear me now.. Before it’s to late.
My breaths are getting faster..
And I don’t know what’s the matter..
Are my days getting shorter?
Am I going away?
Is my life suppose to end like this?
Is it my time to die?
I’m falling into a trance..
I’m falling to sleep…
I just hope when I wake up… I won’t be depressed like this.