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777, you are one lonely guy. Other than my brothers and sister I haven't really got any friends either. I'm brand new on this site, so I don't know anybody here but you, so thank you so much for talking to me. Write me any time. I'm interested in your book. I'm a poet too. I write novels, such as they are. They're improving.
I've had a really hard time personally in the past couple of years. I know it's hard to lose a parent, to life as well as to death. Find what you love to do and do it. Don't let yourself give up. Don't slip to the place where misery is normal. You can get out, man. You can get better. Lean on God. I'm not preaching at you. I'm serious. I'm serious. God does love you.
777, I realize of course that you don't really know me. I recently ran across and reviewed your work for the first time. Frankly, sir, I am worried about you. We're of the same generation, and the world rests heavy on us. I can tell from what you write you are in pain. You aren't at peace and I think you are desperate. I can understand that. Trust God; work through who you are and never, ever let a label define you. If you are sad, if you are troubled it doesn't necessarily mean there is something wrong with you, man. I suffered with anxiety disorders for most of my childhood, but now I love my life. It doesn't necessarily get easier; you just find the melody. Listen to Michael Nyman's song "Time Lapse" when you get a chance. That's how I picture you feeling. I don't mean to make you uncomfortable talking to you like this. I'm just a 23 year old girl a long way off. We're writers. If we can't understand each other who can we understand? Trust God and take care of yourself, sir, and everything is gonna be alright. All the best- I mean it. All the best.
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777  Author Icon
You are very keen to what you read. I've struggled a lot over the years. I was diagnosed bipolar when I was 17, 12 years later I'm finally getting a grasp onto things. Not doing drugs, going to support groups, actually using my support system......but things are lacking. I have two other disorders, one diagnosed, social anxiety disorder, and the other is not diagnosed yet, delayed sleep phase disorder. It basically just means I am an extreme night owl, I typically want to go to sleep around 4-5 am. It makes working more difficult. So I haven't been able to land a job for a prolong period of time because of my sleep. I'm medicated as a chronic insomniac, so the drugs are strong.

No girl. That's what kind of hurts the most. I put effort into these dating sites but I get no hits. I'm pretty lonely.

With that said, I have my writing. It's my expression of this frustration. And I'm glad you could be a part of it.
Happy birthday 777, hope you have a special day. *Heart*
777  Author Icon
Hey thanks!
My pleasure Harry. Have a nice day. *Smile*
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*Star**Cake* Happy 5th WDC Anniversary 777! *Candler* I didn't realize you also joined in December! Me too! Nice xmas gift to ourselves. *Laugh*

I hope you are well and have a brilliant shiny day and happy holidays! *Angel* *Star*
*Holly1* Happy anniversary on WDC 777
Hope you also have a joyous and blessed 'Christ' mas.
Alexi *Heart* *Holly2* *Xmastree*
*CakeB* Happy Account Anniversary!!Taryn*PartyHatB*
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To me, teamwork is the beauty of our sport, where you have
fifteen members acting as one. You become selfless. *Heart*


777! Lucky Seven's! *Bigsmile*

Thank you so much 777 Author Icon for your service with House Martell. When I stepped up to be the captain of Martell, I wanted us to win, do our best, be on our best, and I couldn't have done it without you, without any of you.

I am so proud of the team especially in the last raid when everyone participated ! Following my lead as I lead the team, you guys were my strength, what made me confident, following every thing I wanted us to do, you did your best in it.

You worked really hard for the team. Despite your health condition, you did your best and amazed every one of us! You do not need to be disappointed in yourself and feel as if you have let anyone else down, all you did was move us ahead with you excellent and wonderful efforts! You had told us about your medical condition and I still wanted you on the team because we all want to have fun and having you in the team proved that it was worth everything! I hope you feel the same way!

Thank you so much for everything! This is the best "Game of ThronesOpen in new Window. games I played ever! (Well, it is the second time but still the best *Wink*) and I hope you enjoyed participating in it and loved it like I loved playing with you *Heart* It was an honor playing with you!

         Thank YOU!


*Stary* Aqua *Salute*

777  Author Icon
Aqua thank you so much. It has been a pleasure as well. It has been my first time, and I was humbled when someone asked me to participate. Honestly, this competition brought more stress than fun, simply because I have other writing projects, as well as real life commitments. With GoT winding down, I'll be able to focus on 100 in 100. I'm pretty behind.

Thanks for giving me hope, thanks for showing me the way, and thanks for helping rack up the points! Now we'll see who has won GoT!
No problem at all, it is the truth and I am really sorry that it brought upon you more stress than fun but I wanted to let you know that you were an important part of the team and we all loved your team spirit and hardwork! *Heart* *Smile* *Sun* Thank you again!

Yep, GOT finishes tomorrow, I hope we win!
777  Author Icon
For any who read this.

When I was feeling good and balanced, I was gaming a couple hours a day, writing an exhausting essay, writing poetry, and reviewing. I decided to join 100 in 100, and GoT. Slowly my essay writing stopped. I couldn't keep up, but was close, to 100 in 100. GoT I started strong, but eventually I started to become a member that was a burden to Martell.

Then I have had some medical issues start. I'm bipolar, and I have had five stable days this entire month so far. I have had a moderate mixed episode, enough to stop most of my writing, and now it is looking like severe depression.

I have started talks to somehow withdraw from 100 in 100, but I am determined to stick with it for now. But I can't write as much as I can. I may write a poem or two, but I have been grossly behind. GoT is such a struggle, but I don't want to let my team down, but I feel like I already have.

This just adds to the depression. I feel like I have let myself, and other people down. My anxiety is so high I curl up in bed and pray that I sleep. There are other issues that are happening in my real life.

I'm sharing this to get off of my chest. I hate having let myself, and other people down.
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Well said, Sara! *Heart*
I'm so sorry you are having a difficult time. You are, in no way, a let down to our team! We all have lives outside of WDC. This is our downtime, our funtime, our stress release. No one would want to add to your problems by thinking bad of you. We don't!

As for 100 in 100, I'm doing it too. It's bloomin' tough to do it whilst playing Game of Thrones - I know, I'm way behind! It will help you, I'm sure, to just write with no pressure. Just write what you feel. Just write how much you feel. It may help in some small way and, in turn, you might end up with something for your 100. I hope so.

Sunshine and love to you *Sun*
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Thanks for your vulnerability jon!
Yes! Well said everyone.
There is no reason to stress or push. Do what makes you feel happy.
"should and guilt" are not nice friends I have found. And you cannot let the team down. You have always participated and do what you can. That is the idea of team.*Smile*

What if your body and mind can be proud of what you do accomplish? Build the joy vibe. *Heart*
You are worth it.
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*Sun* Thanks for reviewing today sunspear. Wanna try an interactive? hey it is like gaming. quite addictive and gets imagination rolling. LOL just like WDC.
777  Author Icon
So as the people closest to me know, I absolutely love gaming. But I love it so much it has a negative impact on my life. I can't control it. And so, I've decided to try and end my memories with gaming. As you can imagine, gaming takes away from writing. But I still love to read and write, and I have made some updates on my blog. My goal this week into the next is to re-establish that intense relationship with reading and writing. I want to write more essays, and one day I hope I find the inspiration to write poetry again. Essentially I want to start writing again. Eventually I think fellow writers, you will see a new item added to my portfolio. For once! I'm excited to review as well. We'll see what the future holds.
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Haha I have the same problem, I try to start writing and I end up playing Rock Band, I don't know how it happens it just does.
777  Author Icon
Hate it when people have a short story, essay, or even novel, that requires longer term concentration, and you get under 400 gp's. I'm always going to look the other way if you all are going to be stingy on gp's. And if you aren't, you need to review more.
The solution is to affiliate. I've come to not expect anything from the authors. You'll get paid near 1.5K for good reviews with the Power Group. I find it's just better when the GPs are out of the way - this was I know they're on the way *Bigsmile* Also helps me concentrate better on the piece.

Not that some personal appreciation wouldn't be nice, though...*Rolleyes*
777  Author Icon
How do you get 1.5k from the Power Group? I have gotten max 1k. What is the criterion when crediting reviews?
777  Author Icon
Bummed out that I have had only two reviews for my most recent poem:

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I feel good about this one, and I'm curious what others think.
Cinn  Author Icon
Will see what I can do, love! *Smile* Should be able to review it tomorrow. I'm trying to write a poem of my own at the moment (and failing miserably... just not flowing).
777  Author Icon
I'd love to read it when you are done; I wouldn't review it though. When things don't come to me, I save what I have done and do something else for a little bit. It might be a nooby talking, but don't forget to use the thesaurus if you have to. That has gotten me out of crunches at times. And don't be afraid to revisit and revise what you have written to make a line work, assuming you really want that line to shine.

I know it is hard, I personally haven't had the writers block that you have been going through or have gone through. But those are some small things that have helped me. If you do review my poem, thanks for taking the time. One of your reviews takes a lot of time. I'm personally trying to gauge how well I did on this poem because my next poem idea has similarities with this one. That is why I am desperate in getting more than two reviews where there was little effort involved.
Cinn  Author Icon
I'm trying not to let writer's block settle into my pen again, so I've been writing at least one poem every day for almost a month now, despite being super busy. I consider them "5 minute poems", as that's roughly how much time I spend writing them. hehe There are a few that turned out well... but others I probably wont even bother to revise because they're junk.

Totally agree with your advice! I give that advice to people myself. I do use a thesaurus when I need it. I used one twice for the poem last night-- though it didn't help much. I appreciate your willingness to read it, but it really isn't good. Like, not at all! If you want, you can take a peek through my poetry folder though... no reviews required. *Laugh*

My reviews do take some time... that's for sure. I generally can't help myself though. What can I say? I'm an opinionated lady... good or bad. *Wink* I'll try to get that review out to you soon.
777  Author Icon
Thanks again!
777  Author Icon
Thanks! I'm surprised it took me so long to be affiliated with a group for reviewing. Thanks for having me.
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