I was changing some account options just a few short minutes ago, when I looked at my personal information.... I've been a member of WDC since May of 2001 - and as I look to the upper left hand corner of the screen, I see the WDC logo, which has its 'established' date at the bottom - 2000.... I now understand what it means to have a best friend that knows everything about you and doesn't turn away. I understand how it feels to know that, no matter how long I stay gone, I can always come HOME - and everything is the same. I know what it feels like, finally, to have a place I can go and the door is always open, and the people inside are always happy to see me. My recovery has shown me so much new about life, it has reminded me of so much of the past - and it has in its own way, sent me home again. It feels so good to be back that I still don't have to words to describe the feeling in my heart and soul. All my sincerest thanks go out to The StoryMistress and The StoryMaster for creating a home for a lost soul like me. You guys are awesome! Now I need some sleep, because the sun comes up to early... Thank you again.
As of September 1, I will have exactly 6 months clean and sober. I'm not really sure how I feel about that really, but I do know that I feel healthy again, for the first time in a very long time. I've had periods of sobriety on and off over the last 10 years, but this time - this time there's only one set of footprints in the sand. This time I finally realized that, I CAN'T do it on my own and that I DO need the help - and for the first in 30 years, I've decided to let a higher power take the wheel. I'm not sure how all this will influence my writing, because it's been a very long time since I've put pen to paper in this state of mind - but I can't wait to find out. As soon as I can upgrade again though, we'll find out. Until then, I wish everyone a happy, healthy and blessed weekend.
Life has always been a little unstable and unsure for me. But this time, everything is on the line; my heart, my soul, my sanity... everything that is me. So I'm saying a little prayer and hoping for the best. Peter, I love you, and if you're willing to work as hard at saving our relationship as I am, then I know everything will eventually be okay.
Update: Peter decided drugs were more important than our relationship, his son, his parents, etc....Now, I'm no angel, never claimed to be, but I gave my all - and got nothing in return for my trouble. I'll be updating blogs and adding pieces in the very near future to explain a little bit more. But, Peter and I are no more.... and I'm not hurt about it at all....
Thank you everyone for the wonderful anniversary wishes and reviews. I sometimes lose my way in every day life, but WDC ALWAYS rights the wrongs in my heart and soul. When I look back on the last 13 years and how much has changed since I first became a member here, I am amazed. I cried this morning when I got on here for the first time in a week or two, and realized that 13 years have gone by - and only 2 things have stayed rock solid for me this whole time; my love and devotion to my daughter, and my unending need to have WDC as part of my every day life. I love you all so very much. Thank you again, and please visit often. I'm on my final uphill battle, but I'm taking it slowly this time so I don't slip and fall. But the final climb is sure to bring many new writings (I hope) and lots of time for reading and reviewing. Happy Friday everyone!!!
Wondering what level of chaos will be bestowed upon me with all these new changes in my life lately. So much has happened, so many changes - some good, some bad, some just downright ugly. I've missed you all very much, and realized this morning that right here is where I have, for the last 12 years, always felt the most emotionally and mentally stable - whatever stable might be for me. But I will be adding new items soon, editing old stuff - and finally updated my blog, "Invalid Item" ... so stay tuned for updates (as regular as I can remember to make them) and keep your eyes open for all the new and revamped old that's about to come your way. Have fun boys and girls!!
I am back, with a year long upgrade and at least 2 years worth of writing and memories to fill up journals, blogs and folders. I will do my best to start adding new material in the next few days. Also, if you have reviewed anything in my portfolio since approx 2010 and I never answered, please accept my apologies. I never meant to be away this long. But I'm back now so please feel free to visit again! I've missed you all so much!
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