Hurt so much she exposed her originally rather slight vices to the same level as her originally dominating virtues, making herself kinda bipolar. She's mean and egoistic, but yet kind and helpful. She's distanced, but yet takes everything personally. Stands in awe before her own abilities, but yet believes everything she does is terrible. Her extremes make her so miserable, she creates characters whose lives are even worse than hers, just to feel better for the while she's writing. (If her characters were actually happy, she'd hate writing and wouldn't do that, and she's really good at that. Okay, kidding--she sucks, no matter what she does.)