Forever Friends

It’s getting harder to justify this lie.
It’s getting harder to cover up this feeling.

Every time I pick up the phone
And hear your voice
Or read your words
Kiss your cheek to say hello.

I’m going to have to admit this infection won’t stop spreading.
This stripping of sleep isn’t due to some work related stress.
This lack of lust can’t be explained away by no new faces.

I can see where this piece is heading.
No happy ever afters at this story's ending.

I thought it would go away when I had heard your answer.
I thought that I could forget that sigh before you spoke.
I thought I could erase the awkwardness of your reply

Leave this damage behind me,
Move on,
Move up
Move away from that chapter of my life.


Put it in a box and cover it forever.
Kill it with time.
Retrace your prints with strangers’ fingers,
Obliterate the memories with double shots.
Call others up for laughter or for crying
Take away the importance you have in my life.


The regret, the hurt, the wanting,
That seeps into every vessel through my bones.
The promises I make, the words I mouth to my mirror every morning

But then you call and I can feel my heart beat, again.
I can see myself fall again.
Falling into this dream, this nowhere land.
Hitting, hurting, bruising, crashing
Bit by bit the reality closing in on me and my imaginary you.
Each time you call and I can’t help myself from falling.

"Forever friends" you said to me that night,
As you turned to the dance floor, with another girl swaying by your side.
I smiled, “Forever”

Nothing less and never more.