Reminders of Those Baby Blues

You try to understand me
With each look into my eyes
Stop trying so hard, let it be
You'd never know how I hold all these lies... in these baby blues

I try to hide in everything I say
I dress up for you, and then down to be cool
I stand on the outside, the inside is full of the lost, and decay
I set standards I can't keep, I follow no such rule.... in my world

With parties, alcohol, and those pills I need
I wake up with hopes, and dreams that seem to fade away
I lie through my teeth, remember it only starts as a seed
I don't care what you do to me, or what you say... I remind myself

I dug myself too deep, no way to get out
My thoughts are untrue, I know nothing but lies
I scream, I pray, my thoughts just seem so loud
Don't look in my baby blue eyes for truth.... the inocence is gone.