Mother..

I'm first of all sorry for the language like in the 12th line I think.. I just couldn't find a better word. And once again I'd like o apologize for the sloppiness. This isn't supposed to be perfect. I don't pay attention to syllables or whatever it is that you people keep gettin on to me about.. I wrote it after my mother was beat to death by her 4th husband. so... read it like a very upset person and you'll be fine XD lol.. Sorry...




I hate what's become of me
Because of you and your lies
The secrets we've tried so hard
To keep hidden behind our eyes.
Mother, you were never there..
why did you love the drugs more than me?
and what happened to daddy?
what'd u do to make him leave?!
I know he didnt leave..
You dropped him like a stone
And by your idiocity
Brought an asshole home!
No one deserved the beatings
No mother, not even you
But to me it was life..
What was I to do?!
I remember sitting in the corner
Holding my little sisters
and as they cried in my arms
I'd try to soothe them with whispers..
He'd slam you against the wall..
And slap you in the face
And I can remember
Your stare of disgrace
We could have gotten help
But you hid it well
You denied everything I said
And made our lives a living hell.
I'm sorry mother. I forgive you.
But I guess it's too late now
I just wish that you would have gotten out
But you just didn't know how.
Your body lies here now so lifeless
Why didn't you just listen to me?
If it means anything , I love you.
Why did you have to leave?