Torn Between the Two Best Things...

We promised each other only one chance.
We could make it happen if fate wanted it like that.
We held onto promises and not each others hand.
And here we are, dancing to a different band.
We barely speak; we barely know...
The pain the other caused.
Till this day we're too polite to show.
Even that night we ended it, we tried to hide the tears.
I muffled sobs of protest and denied any of my fears.
The age was a barrier.
The distance was too much.
I met another, but have many reasons...
Too many reasons to tell this person no.
Too soon, still some hope, I can't let go.
Yet, I know this person will love me as you had loved me then.
But I can't help but wonder, if going with him would be a sin.
I reread this promise. I'll catch you as you fall.
Why can't I say goodbye?
Why can't I dismiss this feeling?
WHY WHY WHY?
I sit revelling in the past, trying to find my flaws.
But all I'm doing is tearing our wounds open and making them raw.
I love you and always will, but the fork in the road is right there!
Which way do I chose?
You and a possible future? Or him when it's you I lose?