The End of Forever

The lights shines in my eyes, I can't see
But I hear her voice as she tells me
She's getting weaker, loss of white blood cells
I drop everything, my life is now in hell
I've always secretly tried to protect her from this stuff
As I turn in my bed, I think this is just too messed up

I must ask God; "Why didn't you pick me,
Why did you have to chose her?"
There is nothing she did to deserve this
So why must she feel the burn?

I can't imagine losing the only thing I care for
And I can't watch it stroll out the door
I can’t see her there ontop of the table
And I can't lose her there on the floor
This is the first time that I ever prayed
Since she's getting worse everyday
I've invisioned the black, the name tag, label
I promise you that I'll find a way

The darkness sets in and I'm getting a grip
Of her hand as I hold tight to prevent the slip
She tells me slowly that she is weak
That she can't go on, its so hard to speak
The needles are plunged as I'm by her side
I look to the ceiling and just ask why

The doctors tell me she cannot see
They must operate on her
There is nothing she did to deserve this
I'd sacrifice everything in the world

I can't imagine losing the only thing I care for
And I can't watch it stroll out the door
I can see her there ontop of the table
And I can't lose her there on the floor
This is the first time that I ever prayed
Since she's getting worse everyday
I've invisioned the black, the name tag, label
I promise you that I'll find a way

I can hear the doctors yell, "She's unstable!"
I try to run to her but I'm not able
As the rapid motion of her pulse going down
My knees are weak as I collapse to the ground
The look on her father, and then on her mother
The wall is hit twice by her older brother
A doctor walks out but we all know the result
We know her body stopped and came to a halt

I'm blaming myself for the loss of her love
Since she was an angel from God sent from above
Was I just too blind or too dumb to see
Or am I kicking myself, did she care for me?
Like I cared for her from that moment and forever
I wish memories of her that could make this better
And as I face down on my bed at home
Repeating pictures of her in my head alone

I have to think that heaven isn't too far away