Why I am the Way I am

I'm reminicin on times that's past
like wakin up at night and hearin him beat her ass
hearin moms cryin like a baby
it drove me fuckin crazy
what I'm supposed to do im only four years old
prayin that in the morning I don't find my mommy cold
beg God to keep her breathin through the bruises and the tears
keep her heart pumpin and don't fufill my worst fears

Kept hearin that till I was about eight years old
then what would you know it's my turn to feel cold and alone
I think I'll go to sleep early so I don't have to see him
wait I can't lil' bro's here if Dad sees him he might beat him
so I'm takin blows for lil' bro' and im tryin not to cry
I'm takin blows for lil' bro' and beggin God to let me die

Soon my body stops hurtin but the pain never leaves
its deep inside in my mind it hurts so bad I think my soul bleeds

When you turn 13 people start askin why
why you comin to school with busted lips and black eyes
but see now im hittin back and I dont need your fuckin help
you turned your head when I needed it so now go fuck yourself
I'll go to Juve' every week as long as Dad, you gettin yours
and I remind you every time where that came from there's so much more

All that stopped a week after 16
got kicked out on the streets and had to live by my own means

Everything's good now, I got my house, my car, and my man
but I'm thankful for all that I've gone through
it's made me the strong woman that I am

And this right here is my storys bottom line...
Keep your head up you'll make it through, EVERYTHING passes in time