I Sink Further Into My Darkness

Incessantly pondering the damage done to me
It is no wonder every day is a boundless hell
Unsounded loneliness is the plague of my existence
Carefully showing me the reaches of hell
Yet, I suffer with resistance
Praying soon I’ll find deliverance
And finally find a new state of existence

I can’t understand why I suffer calamities
Why I’m doomed to devout brutality
I have long carried the weight of insanity
And now I am bound by cruel fantasies

I have never comprehended my state of torment
Never fully understood why
Now that everyone else has found their contentment
I stay still in view of time’s eye
Dying infinite deaths in my loneliness
Trying desperately to fill my emptiness
All the while knowing my hopelessness

So I suffer the question of nothingness
I’ve lost myself in all this blackness
Sinking into false indifference
Never able to fully see
What’s wrong with me?

-11/3/04 (10:43 PM)