"UNLOVABLE"

If she said she loved me,
you'd think I would recall,
the loving hands of a mother,
that's supposed to say it all.
Loving little kindnesses,
kisses soft and tender.
If my Mother did these things,
I really don't remember.

He said he loved me dearly,
as he turned and waved goodbye,
but he was never there
to calm a fear or dry a teary eye.
So I grew up not knowing,
if he loved me so.
But, if Daddy really loved me,
you'd think that I would know.

He said he really loved me,
with kisses soft & sweet.
So I pledged to him all I was
or ever hoped to be.
But twenty years of anger,
really said it all.
And if my husband loved me,
you'd think I could recall.

She said, "I love you Mommy"
as kisses sweet,
she planted firmly on my cheek,
the dark-haired darling girl of mine.
But as life progressed
she took with her, her child so small
and left me far behind.
And if she really loved me,
I really can't recall.

One life bereft of those she loved,
wounded by great loss of all
& IF they ever loved her,
she really can't recall.

Unlovable a person, I really must be,
because if anyone ever truly wanted
and needed love,
surely it is me.