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There is but one word,
One feeling,
That could describe in a small way the amount of emotion,
The amount of loyalty I have for you.
You may not see my smile when I want you to,
Which is kind of ironic.
But this isn't about irony,
It's about what is laid before me.
I can reach it,
But I'm scared that once I take the plunge to grab it,
I might fall.
And what is scarier than that, is that you will fall too.
I am constantly drowning in my own mistakes.
My life is a rapid river and I am the person in the slowly sinking raft.
But then when I met you,
You were my life support.
But I don't want you to be caught in my rapid river with me.
I want you to be safe on the shore.
Maybe I'm asking you to leave,
I don't wish for you to get hurt.
But you leaving would hurt me so very much.
But it's not about my pain anymore.
You are far more important than I will ever be.
And the fact that you still stand beside me and crack jokes,
The fact that you don't notice what that means to me,
Makes me frightened.
You can calm my heightened nerves.
You really are my other half, yet with over lapping ideas that I can relate to.
But, you know,
You belong to a different river.
A river with less turns and less waterfalls.
A river more like you.
In the end, I found out which river you chose.
You chose the river that joined with mine.

I LOVE you too.