Snowball

Feelings chat

Truth be told, i just came here to vent my thoughts, so you can read but don't expect it to be good


I'm terrified, not of spiders or anything stupid like that, I'm more scared of losing them. I feel like life is just a Snowball gradually melting and highschool is just a pause, more of putting it in a freezer for it to stay the same way, maybe even gradually adding on pieces of snow so it grows. But then you take it out and it starts to melt. I fear for the time when my snowball fully melts and I can't throw it in the freezer again for it to stay the same. I'm terrified, it feels like my snowball melts too fast and I feel like I'm losing it forever. People say highschool will pass and fade but what if I don't want it to? What if I like my current snowball? My snowball constantly says it'll be fine but i know it won't be, i want to believe my snowball but i can't. I hate my snowball and I love it at the same time. When my snowball melts out of my hands i'll keep the melted water, make sure its safe and not pushed around somewhere where i wont see it, where i wont forget. I'm scared and I hate thinking about when my snowball melts.


4/9/2025.