You Wide Eyed Girls, You Get It Right

My last portfolio item was my tenth, and as a basic member, I was cut off from posting anymore new items. I finally decided to bite the bullet and purchase an upgraded membership, so I can continue to pursue writing here. I look forward to taking this a bit more seriously.

I am sitting in a one hundred year old theater, in the workshop. I accompanied my partner to work today. I was hoping for a distraction from the election madness, and all of the anxiety that it is causing in me. You can't be nervous and upset when you're surrounded by a couple thousand puppets.

I have a cup of coffee, a dreamy playlist is wafting through the air as I sit at the work bench, and wade into this creative sphere. I am in my truest element right now. The buzz of others working at the front of the theater is merely background noise. Like having a television on while you work in another room.

So much of my life is in a state of flux and evolution currently. I am sleeping on a friend's couch when I am not at my partner's place. There is a stark difference between the two sleeping arrangements. Both have their positive attributes. But only one provides a comfortable night's sleep in my partner's arms.

If you are at all involved with astrology, you might understand that this is a time of shifts and change for many. The forecast for my astrological sign foretells a wonderful and long awaited transformation. After an almost eighteen year period of struggle and darkness. New living arrangements, career changes, abundance, happiness and deep abiding love are all on the menu.

I am doing my damnedest to lean into this transitional time. Praying for stability and security. I envision my first night in my own space, having pizza with my partner and friends, sitting amongst boxes, on the floor. I will finally be able to take a deep breath and relax. No more waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I long to get back to cooking and baking. Making R*'s lunches from scratch, and including a little note of encouragement. Plotting out the layout of my new space and painstakingly choosing furniture and décor to reflect our new life. Eventually, R* will either move in with me, or we will find a space that can house the two of us.

I have held onto this vision for so long, and I cannot imagine things not going according to all of the work I have done to manifest this. I believe wholeheartedly that this dream life is more than possible. I believe it will, indeed, happen.

I have clawed myself out of rock bottom. I am building it all from the foundation up. I am enthused and feeling optimistic about what's to come. The trials and tribulations are all coming to an end. I welcome peace with wide open arms.