my love

Hello
i really dont know how to start this... I have made horrible decisitions in the past that have lead us where we are. and i know that nothing of this would of happend if i just was different from the very start. ive been ungrateful for everething i have, thinking that i could have them forever. Im changing and that night didnt go as i wnated. i just wanted to enjoy the fireworks with you, the love of my life, i wanted to enjoy every second of that nigth because we dint have a lot of time together.i am so sorry for how it turned out, i never intended for it to go that way.
the truth is that i never want to loose you, ever. and i would do anything to still be with you, i am so thankful that you gave me another chance to be with you, and i am really trying to make things right this time. The will be no more lies, no more disrepects, no mre stupid stuff. just you and me against the world.
I love you so much, and i mean every part of it. I Love You. I Love You. you are the love of my life, and you forever will be. and i knoe you think im disloyal to you and to us. and that you are afraid that when you are gone i will do some stupid stuff and break your trust again. but no, that will not happen. i am done doing stupid and mindless stuff. i will never disrespect our relationship ever again, and i know ill do that becaue youare the only person in my mind, you are the only one that i think about. you are th only person that i think about before going to sleep and after i wake up. evry single hour, every single. minute, every single sencond you are on my mimd. when im eating something i wonder if you would like that, ehn im in the restroom i think if you already had your daily poop, when im doing chores i wonder if you already did them. when im showering i think about how our first shower would go. There is not a single moment that you are not inmy mimd, that i dont think of you. and i know you are thinking " then why did you do that that night" I was truly just waiting for you, troughtout the whole conversation i was hoping you would come and save me from that conversation, i really didnt want to talk to him.
I am so sorry. im sorry. im so sorry that im making you hurt so much, that i made you hate me, that i drove you to the point of wanting to break up, im sorry. i am. So. So. Sorry.
You truly mean the world to me without you i have nothing in this world, nothing. nothing to fight for and nothing to live for. You inspire me every day, i see you and i just wan to be a better person, i want you to see that im a better person, i just want you to see me and see the love of your life again.

Que es lo qur piensas despues de esta carta? que tr hizo sentir esta carte? podemos hablar sobre eso?

sincerely,
your one true love