The allure of lies and insecurities.

The allure of lies and insecurities.
I thought you gonna stay,
You promised you were here for my worst days.
Yeah, I know I ended it and blocked you,
Still somewhere my heart hopes return of you.
I thought your presence was healing me,
But instead, it was bringing out insecure anxious me.


Well, if it's a love a love if it's not toxic,
Oh, love is too strong word to defame,
Fuck dude attachment is the real the game.
Of course, I failed it and allowed myself to crave your attention,
Oh, I almost forgot to mention.


Those pretty words you told,
The way you lied that was bold.
Did I ever tell you those pretty lies I still hold,
Because accepting the fact might make me cold.
I don't want to go back where I came from,
Where anxiety strikes me at Dawn.


Make me insecure and think about the time where you told me part of your past and you were still fine,
Yeah, agreed its past but how am i supposed to explain,
I don't want to be one of them,
Yes, you know you claimed,
But still your actions were same.
Ugh this is being lame!
Not again. duh
They say right person wrong time wrong person right time,
No right no wrong it was all fine.
It wasn't meant to be for us,
Maybe it was just lust - not really!
We never reached the crust.


Whatever it was it was cool,
Even though it made me attached and possessive, okay here I am fool.
Somewhere I know I wasn't ready for it not with you, my knight,
Yes, I was insecure and needed constant reassurance but you being you, your schedule was always tight.
I was over thinker and be honest my overthinking was right,


Being here I see no light,
Because I am aware those insecurities I hid will return at night.
It was not your fault, you failed to make me stay,
Maybe I was too broken to see the light of the day.