I Wasn’t Supposed To

I went and did something I wasn’t supposed to do.
I went and started falling for you.

We agreed that wasn’t the deal.
We said we’d try our best not to feel.

But here I am, feeling and wondering.
I don’t know how to tell you I’m hurting.

I don’t want to push you away.
But it’s killing me to stay.

What do I do now that I’m here?
What do I say when I’m full of fear?

Fear that you’ll leave. Fear that you’ll stay.
Fear of all the unknowns in my way.

This is all new to me.
I don’t know who I am or who I want to be.

This wasn’t what I wanted.
This isn’t what I was expecting to happen.

But here I am, doing something I didn’t want to do.
Here I am, falling for you.