Just another month

You often made me jealous
You didnt even try
It didnt take much effort
But another girl in sight

I tried to make you jealous
I tried in many ways
Just wanted you to care for me
Enough to feel betrayed

You're leaving now in just a month
Novembers creeping up
Inevitable it lurks
But you're speeding it up

November's not early enough
So why not leave me now
If that is all that's coming for us
No use waiting it out

It isn't fucking fair
I still had some time
You took away this month from me
Our last month was still mine

I still had a list
Of things for us to do
But developing this bond we have
Is useless, cruel too

I see where you are coming from
I do know what you mean
But this was supposed to be steady
And you're already nowhere to be seen

We talked but then you lied to me
You said it would be slow
And when I'm still at the start
you're already letting go

Please just wait for me
A little while longer
I am still not ready yet
For us to sink down under

I know what it will be like
We will both be okay
I will find a new light
When you are far away

But hearing your name will always sting
Our song will still be ruined
My heart it will still yearn for you
Silently, but fluent

Our photos are in the closet now
Ready with the rest
To be buried, at least for now
Or forever put to rest

It hurts me to not know
If you will be back for me at all
If you will find me after all those months
Will i even get a call

I guess that only time can tell
And being honest with myself at last:
I hoped for just another month
But wanted all the rest