Another lesson

You could say I attract toxic

Even when that is never my real plan

You were supposed to be my breath of fresh air

Supposed to finally commit to someone

Someone to feel safe with

Your eyes were never on me after our fight

They were on her

I had a feeling

I never told you because I didn't want to fight

But last night you admitted it

You wanted her

Not me

I told you

"Whatever makes you happy"

Despite the anxiety that had erupted in my body

I hoped my tears wouldn't leak out

I didn't want you to see that

You knew it was wrong to pursue my roommate

Yet I told you that I wanted you happy

Despite it ripping me up inside

I held your hand not even three days ago

I still feel your hands on my body

I know they will no longer be on mine but hers

It hurts but I know it won't forever

For that reason

I will move on

You will become yet another lesson

And after time

It will no longer hurt

I cannot wait for that day