loving outside of you

I like someone

he is so kind

compassionate

empathetic

his smirk is what always gets me

when I am looking at him for a little longer than I should

yet something inside of me is terrified

because what if he ends up like you

a memory

who I think he is

isn't him

like I am going to fall and have no landing

like it was with you

I am scared to trust him like I did you

he tells me not to apologize when I express how I feel

you always told me to get over it

something of you is always left behind

whether I know it or not

you're always there

reminding me to be more careful

it's hard to love outside of you

because I knew what to expect of you

he is new

a breath of fresh air

but will my fear get in the way?

the fear that was put there because of you

I hope not

he makes me feel new

like my hurt was never there

that's the big difference between him and you

when I see him

it isn't fear

but excitement

I'm ready for new

I need new