This poem is about the pain of losing my mother. It was written as a therapy assignment. |
Broken Shattered, Dying on the floor Lost hope, faith is gone, all you is pain galore Explosions in your mind, bombs to the heart Drowning in your tear, you don;t want to live anymore Slivers of your heart bury in the past Memories of things you thought would last Damaged goods is what they call you Washed up, used, and worthless to the world Breathing is shallow and you can barely gasp Flashes of your past are hand around your throat Squeezing harder until you can't even choke Voices telling you to close your eyes Pain is the devil it really does you in Darkness is all you start to see No more beauty no more soul Just a cold body on the floor Life comes with no instructions It plays by no rules Over time it beats you down And you lose control to the darkness Mind plays tricks every step of the way Tells you that your never good enough to be here anyway Whispers lies into your ears, sings about all your fears Never rests, never tells a single truth, just breaks you You left me with broken pieces You lied to me from the start Telling your youngest child that we will never part So many first times never to be seen It is unfair and is just mean No more kisses on the forehead No more late night talks No more life lessons Since now your gone Six feet under and dead to the world Lays the body of my mother The reason I am on this earth Gone but never forgotten Your memory haunts me and the pain is just to strong I see you in mirror when I look at my face I hear you in my voice and feel you in my sleep Always around me but it is just a memory not reality I have been lost for over 10 years Broken and longing to have you hug me near Many tears cried and lots of anger too This is the most painful thing I have ever been through I watched you take your last breath as you lay on the floor I saw your body go limp and your eyes close for good Watching them put the sheet on your face tore me in two To know you would not be coming back to us soon This event has traumatized me for life It has left me broken I know that we argued and fought But your still my mamma, my one real friend All the emptiness left by you Has scared me, Shattered me, and shook my world around No I hear voices instead of actually talking to you I tell my life to a tombstone that does not talk back Each day with out you is harder than the first Yet somehow I slowly seem to make it through Seeing other women share things with this mom's is hard Because only in my dreams are you still alive and going strong I have to keep my head up and stay strong You taught me to hide me feelings but without you to tell me secrets to The emotions over flow Drowning me daily and making the noise in my head grow Living in my head is a crazy ride It is really not that fun My mind plays tricks on me you see It sees you as here and I know your gone |