Abandonment

Abandonment
You left me while I was at my darkest moment.
You left me for dead like a shot to a rodent.
I cried every night for 3 years.
You made me desert my peers.
I was done, no one cared.
You made me this person.
I wanted to commit arson.
3 years and I’m still angry.
You left without warning.
All of the care and love I was yearning.
I hate what you did to me!
All of your flirting was a lie.
You made me want to curl up and die.
I wanted that rope around my neck.
I wanted that gun to my head.
Just to stop my feelings for you.
Just to make them GO AWAY!
The voices told me to kill you
To torture you, make you pay!
I refused, now I regret that decision!
I wish you were dead!
I wish you would burn in HELL!
I would love to watch you YELL!
As you fall in a pit of fire
It’s my only desire
I’d love to make a video of you dying
Replay it over and over again in my head.
Just like the thoughts of killing you come to life.
As I lie in my bed,
Wishing you would just DROP DEAD!