After the chat

you hurt me to escape the converstion
so, why did you agree that you had feelings?
say i'm a child but you're of the same age
i'm lying with my bare back on the cold ground
listening to some sad songs all which i can relate to
worried if you cared or it was a bluff
understanding that this is toxic but i can't let go
trying hard from an year guess you're glued in here
seeing you jeleous gave me hope
then you burnt it down to ashes
thought you'd be happy to hear the words
but you're using those tactics you master
never tried to disturb or expect anything
but you constantly felt the need to deny
don't care about your advice on money and career
if i was really that person, i'd be spending my nights with lights on.