Lost Poem for Fred

To my husband Frederick

Without Whom I would be

Wandering Around in life

lost

I love you Honey

"Lost"

I would bet my life on the fact that without you I would be lost.

I would be lost on our trips on the bus without you. You are my eyes and my ears you keep me safe

even when I don't think I need it. I would be lost in life without as well. I appreciate that you keep me

on track even when I feel you don't have to. I can't imagine life without you I am not strong enough to be on my own in life without you. It may seem like I am but I am not. I may put up a front sometimes that I am but its exactly that a front. I feel I have to be strong all the time because that's all I know how to be is strong. I don't know how to let myself be vulnerable not anymore. I use to be able to but not anymore. With you I can sometimes let myself be vulnerable, because without you I would feel lost. I love to be with you I feel safe with you, but I have a hard time showing it sometimes. There are times I don't show it and I apologize for that.

After 25 years of marriage I am still not sure how to be anything but strong, but now I am going to try a little be harder to try and show that I can be vulnerable but that is going to be hard. I am going to say that without you in my life I would be wandering around lost. You know that me attempting to be vulnerable is a work in progress. With you in my life it is going to be a task so please don't go away from because I don't want to be lost in life because your not in it and that is hard for me to say.

I love you Fred

Tuesday, October 8, 2019

Jennifer Crystal Gorecki-Tims