Use...stop using...relapse...use...stop using...relapse...ten years...twenty years... |
Waiting for my dealer again “I'm leaving now” could mean anything And that's just the start, there's more to come Before I have what I need...this is just so dumb Does this lifestyle bring me any joy? Had I known before a man becomes a boy A cure for sadness is not really a cure When it adds to the problem, with even more to endure When all else seems to be falling apart To feel anything except a hollow heart A glimmer of something that was taken away No consolation prizes in this game I play Now I'm in this up to my neck Suffocating in my own regret A fool and his worth are easily parted Is the only way forward to join the dearly departed? “You need help...you can't do this on your own” Too proud to ask...too close to home Doing exactly what I did yesterday Afraid I won't have the final say Ending up in a place where the memories are gone So ironic, considering that's why I sing this song To forget what makes my sadness so real The greatest loss, made on the worst ever deal “I can do this”....” I bet you can't” “All I need to do is get a start” Hope is not my friend right now She dumped me...but I can do it without her anyhow I have no intention of confessing my issues For friends and family to break out the tissues I got this far all on my own Determined to make my head a drug free zone Already my brain is coming up with excuses Telling me this drug has many uses But using IS the only priority Addiction can no longer be the supreme authority A lifetime doing the wrong thing No one should have to notify my next of kin Life is real, but drugs are not The time has come for me to stop |