a reflection of a young relationship |
The END Welcome to the end. Everything is in the wind I've burnt the pages The texts The drawings The simple words in my mind. We've run the race It's been five years since the start The green light was a sign of hope and stupidity Hold my hand and drive like hell Run Run Run Ignore the flashing lights They can't catch us Young and dumber than yesterday They'll buy the ignorance Won't they? Just see my smile and hear my laugh Free at last Love me now. The second wind A year in The first fights and signs of dissent Brush it off Who cares? Apologies and frantic kisses Lips on my jaw, my ankles, my heart Bandaids that weren't bandaids No, they were stitches that didn't take But ignore the wound Move on We're in love after all Just see my face, my body, and all my brokenness Take pity, my love I'm cracked. Fractured. Take care of me. Fix me. The halfway point A milestone The meter is in the red now Commitment that has morphed into value Too rich to give up Too poor to doubt Looking beyond was an empty promise Too painful to think about Let's just pretend it's not there The end is just an illusion So in the meantime... Just punch it, babe. All the way to the floor We're in it to win it, right? We were fools. I see the checkered flag It waves like a taunt A pathetic celebration of freedom Last gear babe Can't you see it? We've run out of steam The tank is empty, honey We're not gaining ground We're slowing down The weight of anger Betrayal And that goddamn noose You owe me Owe me Owe ME OWE ME GIVE IT TO ME GIVE ME WHAT I AM OWED JUST STOP TALKING STOP CRYING STOP BEING YOU. Be me. Listen to me I am right You're lost You're not you anymore You're just a shadow You've run off with another He doesn't love you like me Hear it from the people who... "Love" you. Love me. I'm all you need. Just Just Just No, be you. I love you for you. Wait, what? I love you for who I want you to be. Futures, right? Be the future us. The future you. Yeah, that you. Not old you. FUCK JUST BE YOU, OKAY? No, wait I didn't mean it like that Just be you. Whatever you you want to be But please Not that you. The finish line. It's here now, honey We're running on fumes But the car has given out It will never run again At least not the way it once did What's our time? Is it good? Is the track record clean? Ha! No. Turn in your tickets now. Here's your score Oops. A bad performance. Maybe it's time to throw in the towel Leave the oil where it lies The broken parts aren't made anymore Perhaps it's time to buy a new car Right? I'm sorry. The replay Wow, what a ride. Exhilarating lust A flame from the tailpipe The roar of a healthy motor Comfortable seats Buckled in and ready But the crash So unexpected A collision of a different kind Misunderstanding Misguided Missing... The simplicity The carefree The unhindered hopes The days in the breeze now Ashes. Burn babe... Burn it all away. The dusty tape Five years is a blink. Blow it off Play it once And cry for the smiles The hope The laughter that we once had In that car Fuck that car No, love that car Wait, HATE that car Ugh, I'm so glad we had that car. Glue of another kind. The tape cuts out It's over. Cry and cry Smile at another and put it away Tuck it in a box. Pull it out in five years Be thankful for the lessons Hope and stupidity Youth... Young dreams Childish games Race you there and back. No, one more time. Wait, I won that time, right? Put the tape away Reminisce another day Just be. Be me. I am me. I am free. I am everything. The end X amount of years It's been done for a while now The race ended ages ago The finish time is still the same Carry the ticket with me Remember me. Remember you. Remember all the parking lots The almost family The difference in kinds The permanent damage The first kiss. The final call The broken words The empty promises The unresolved hurt It's done. Write it off. Drive away now. Over a horizon and down an unremarkable road. Choose to be. Be you. Trust me, You're the best as you. Even in the end. This is the end. Burn the tape. |