Today

Today

Today I wanted to smile, instead I kept frowning,
Today I wanted to be happy, instead I was sad,
Today I wanted to laugh, instead I kept crying,

Today

Today I wanted to eat, instead I starved myself,
Today I wanted to be there for my friends and family, instead I distanced myself,
Today I wanted to forgive the ones who hurt me, instead a held on to that grudge.

Today

Today I wanted to make my family proud, instead I let them down,
Today I wanted to pray and read the Bible, instead I was filled with too much anger,
Today I wanted to be friendly, instead I was rude and cold,

Today

Today I wanted my heart at ease, instead my heart was filled with pain, regret and frustration,
Today I wanted to receive good news, instead I received bad news.

Today

Today I wanted to care, instead I didn’t give a damn,
Today I didn’t want to have a care in the world, instead it felt as if the world was on my shoulders,
Today I wanted to love unconditionally, instead I hated with all my might,
Today I wanted to feel proud, instead I felt like a looser.

Today I wanted plenty, instead I received nothing.