Darkness

Dear readers,

My name is Dominesha Jackson and I am the author of these poems. But before you read these poems most of them are kind of despondent but I believe all teens have at least experienced some of these things...... I hope you all enjoy.

Sincerely, Dominesha (the poet)

Poems

I am the Queen
Loneliness
Death
C-bullying
Why?
Broken
I miss you
I knew
Emotions
Suicide note

I am the Queen

By: Dominesha Jackson

I am not petite like a model

I am not cute like a suburban sweet

I am the Queen where people bow down to my feet

I am not mean

Nor am I shallow

I am the girl who everyone like to brag on

I am not fat

Nor am I your piece of meat

I am determined and eager

People say I am thick and I tell them I am not

Just because my hips are round and curvy

That does not make me yours

Just because my tummy is not flat that does not make me fat

Just because my smile is so bright that does not make me yours

I am the Queen and if there's trouble I'm where they lean

My words hold power

My hands hold value

My hips may sway

My thighs may be big

But I am not yours

I'm the Queen and the Queen I shall be

I may cry but these tears are not for you

They say I walk like I own the place and that's because I do

I do not dress to impress

Because these boys still fall down to their knees

I walk the halls alone and full of pride because

I am the Queen and the Queen I shall be

I don't need a king

I run the world alone with no hands to hold

But that does not make me selfish and mean

So I am the Queen and the Queen I shall be.

Loneliness

By: Dominesha Jackson

I'm so tired of being here

All the screams and cries makes me want to die

I'm tired of crying

So I keep my tears buried inside

No matter what I say

You think I'm a disgrace

No matter what I do it's never good enough for you

You claim you're the Queen

But really you're the wicked witch

Locking me away to never find my happy end

Does everyone want to see me hurt

Make me cry to the point to where I want to die

Does no one see my pain, hear my cries

No they want me to fly high

Tears cover my face but people see me as a joke

I'm tired of being nice or

The sweet little girl people want me to be

I'm tired of trying and one day people will finally see

See my pain

See my tears

The things I fear

But just know one day

I will succeed

Death

By: Dominesha Jackson

Die just die

No will miss you

No one cares

You're worthless

Wipe away those tears

Nobody knows your here

Nobody knows you exist

Your insurance is paid

Die just die

Cry cry cry that's all you ever do

Nobody cares

You are not a queen

Just let your blood drip

If you want this pain to end

All you have to do is just DIE!

Take that knife and shove it in your side

Take that rope and tie it around your neck

Take that blade and put in your vain

Take that gun and put it to your brain

Die just die

You have no purpose

Your life is worthless

Die just die

You tried to prove

But people told you to move

You even told and now it's time to go

Die just die I'll give it a few days then you take your life away

Tell them it was suicide

But everyone would know you gave up on another fight

Die just die

Take that knife and cut your wrist

Let those boys see your gifts

No one cares

We all know life isn't fair

But maybe if you die the world just might get there

Die just die

C-Bullying

By: Dominesha Jackson

You don't make them sad

It's those demons inside of their head

You don't make them cry it's those monsters telling them that everything is true

You pick and judge them commenting those nasty comments

when really and truly no one asked you

Making fun of them because you thought it got you friends

When really it made that child be put on suicidal watch

You thought it was all fun and games

Until they put that razor to their wrist and

Rope around their neck

Hoping that one day it'll all come to an end

That's when you'll say it was a mistake

It was a joke

But it's far too late

You didn't make them hate their self

Those words on that screen did

They tried to be brave

But you laughed in their face

Now their tossing and turning in their sleep

Hoping that it all was a dream.....

Why?

By:Dominesha Jackson

Why did you have to leave me behind?

Why are you continuously on my mind?

Why don't you want me?

What did I do this time?

I would have never left your side

But you left mines

You took me as a joke so now you have to watch me grow

Don't hit my line saying how much you missed me

Because you were just a lifeless joke

Why did you have to lie?

Could've just said you didn't want me anymore

Or you could've stayed gone and left me alone

Pop up around my birthday time like it's your favorite holiday

But don't even stay for the actual day

Like we live in a different time zone

So in the end you would forever be my father you just lost the title to be my dad

Grow Up!

By:Dominesha Jackson

Grow up you play entirely too much

You would never understand what it's like to be grown

Your a whore

You'll never be anything

Your just like your mom

And you would think all those words would hurt me

But no they don't I grew up on those words

I've always felt anger

Always wanted to fight

Always wanted to argue

But me not wanting to do certain things doesn't make me a kid

Doesn't make me immature

And those damn words doesn't make me want to grow up even more

I am grown up

I will grow up

I don't have to grow up because you feel like I'm not good enough

I am good enough

I will be good enough

But I will not prove
I will not fight
I will not beg

Because I am good enough and I will grow up

But one day you will see

I've always been good enough

Broken

By:Dominesha Jackson

You hurt me

You broke me

You tore me down

And now I feel like u deserted me

I would say I want to take my life away

But that would only give u the satisfaction to know u accomplished your job

I carry a lot of pain but I try my hardest to fight it

JUST STOP!

LET ME GO!

I don't want to hurt anymore

Let me be free

Just stop hurting me

But you don't seem to care

Because you were never there

So go ahead and laugh

Go ahead and play

It doesn't matter to me because each and everyday

I wake up with a smile on my face

And the heart that was once stolen would be restored

I miss you

By:Dominesha Jackson

For some reason I can't seem to get you off my mind

I think about you all the time

Most of the time I still wish you were mine

I know we can't be together because our worlds can't combine

But for some reason I didn't care I wanted you to always be there

I actually wanted you to care

I fell for you when I was a kid

And now I know you'll never be there

I can't even crack a smile

But the thought of you makes me want to wait a while

Why can't you love me like I love you

Why can't you care like I care for you

I just miss the thought of you

I miss your smile

I miss your touch

I miss you just looking at me with those lost eyes

I thought no one cared

I thought I was alone

But then I found you so I thought you were the one til you broke me

Is it wrong to want someone who hurt you?

Who broke you so many times?

It turns out he was a demon in disguise

He just wanted to make me cry

So why do I miss this guy?

I Knew

By:Dominesha Jackson

I knew a girl who was bullied

Who was talked about

Who parents beat her because she was overweight

Who parents called her nothing saying she would forever be alone

I knew a girl

Who was way too shy to take pictures because she thought we'll laugh at her

Little did she know I was her friend

I didn't care what people thought of her but she didn't see it

I knew a girl who parents beat her because they felt she wasn't good enough

She wasn't worth their time

But still she tried she came to school covered in makeup

But everyone thought she was just trying to be dolled up

But really she was covering her body that was covered in marks

She always wore long sleeves even in the summer

And never ate because she felt she was overweight

What can I do to help

Tell the cops... My parents

No it may only make things worse

She would beg me not to tell

Beg me to keep it a secret so I did

But one day she will be someone special

Emotions

By:Dominesha Jackson

Liar that's what you are

I don't believe a thing you say

You think someone cares til they laugh in your face

They never want to hear a word you say

You tell them one thing and they shoulder shrug

When you yell they call your bluff

When your quiet you a bitch

When you talk you a whore

When you don't play sports you are never going to be important

So tell me what's good enough for you

Help me understand

Suicide Note

I'm sorry to the people I love

But I can no longer go on

I don't want to be here anymore and I know I'm not welcomed

I'm sorry I was born

Sorry I was a mistake

Sorry I'm never good enough

And by the time you read this it's probably too late

I'm sorry to everyone I've hurt

But this is for the best

I know you don't care but this is what I have left