The Monster in my Head

The night draws near. Shadows bringing fear.
The blood of the lies in a puddle on the floor.
I’m trapped between these walls, four,
That tell a secret I knew they would never keep.
Something dark and monstrous waits in the deep.
Shadows to be fed another tear,

That has escaped in whispers from my hazel eyes.
Tendrils embrace me with lies,
Leaving me wounded from their harsh grasp.
Taking my breath away, leaving me numb with a rasp.
Shadows taking over my mind, leaving me disheveled.
My emotions drag me down like a dress of metal.

That monstrous being moans and sighs, waiting for it to rain.
Seizing down on the pain
I cannot cry, for that is what it wants.
For me to cry like rain, in haunts.
Anger is growing like an unwanted weed, leaving my judgment tangled.
I feel as if I’m being strangled.

Skin connects with concrete, stinging my wrist like bees.
Things begin to blur and I fall to my knees.
I’m falling deeper and deeper,
Into the arms of the monster in my head.
My heart fills with black dread,
As he softly calls me to bed.

My ears begin to ring.
Nothing but a constant memory sting,
Filling my thoughts with a black summary.
It runs through my bones leaving dark poison,
Tracing through my heart of hearts,
Leaving my world apart.

It’s nothing to scream,
Filling the stream with whispers of old,
Erupting thoughts of untold.
Shadows of night,
Making me relinquish the fight
Always saying, ‘Good Night.’

He sets me on his dark throne
And whispers he is only known
For the evil, he has shown.
The monster wishes to seal my fate
And turn my heart to hate.
And now it is too late.

His demons rip at my soul,
Leaving me unwhole.
I'm exposed and it shows,
The monster pleased with their work.
I'm unsteady and not ready
For he's making me heady.

I know nothing of sleep
As he covers me too deep
In the darkness
Of his heartless ways.
He's here to stay
And will never go away.