Something in me shifted.

Don't be so self-obsessive. Don't pity yourself. Don't be so evasive.

How do you drag yourself out of a hole?

I've never been this person and I don't like it. The one thing I was always so good at was putting me to the back of my mind. Why can't I do that anymore?

I used to be so full of empathy, I used to do anything to help anyone, I used to be that person that would put herself on the line for anyone and everyone. I've always been at the back of the pile.

I can't do it anymore.

Something has changed, something in me has shifted and while I can't recall exactly what made that so, I can't shake it either. No matter how hard I try, no matter what I try, the feelings don't go away.

I keep willing them to... I really am trying...

So what do you do when you give up trying?

Maybe, just maybe, this is the outcome of that decision. Did I give up?