Suicidal End to Life

How do you expect me to survive without you in my life?
You were my heart and soul and now I'm just a lifeless mess
Wishing things could go back to how is was before that dreadful night
When you broke my heart and ripped all of my life from within.

Now as I stare up at the stars with suicidal thoughts flowing through my mind
I can't help but blame you for the way I am these days
Everyone warned me and tried to talk me out of trusting you with my heart
And what a stupid mistake I made in trusting a snake like you.

The scars running up and down my arms are proof of how unstable I am
Wishing I could rid myself of every memory I have and made with you
Battling my inner demons whilst trying to keep myself from hurting you
Does ending my life have to be the only way to forget who you are?

Standing in the bathroom staring at my reflection and not knowing who is looking back
Watching as the blood flows freely from my wrists, forming puddles on the floor
Clutching at the knife whilst tears flow down my cheeks as I say my final goodbye
Forcing the knife into my heart as I wish it didn't have to be this way as I fall lifelessly