Risky/Safe

I want to text him. But what would I say? Asking “How are you?” feels too risky; saying “I hope you’re well” feels too safe. Safe because it wraps up the truth inside a bland phrase meant to end a card written to someone you don’t really know. But I do really know him. Or, at least, I did. And while I do hope that he’s well, a small part of me also hopes that this is hurting him the same way it’s hurting me. And therein lies the risk of “How are you?” Because maybe he’s fine even though I’m not, and maybe he doesn’t think about me, and maybe he doesn’t want to text me.