Fairytale

The Fairytale I prayed for when i was 6 didn't exist but now I understand that it's the Tale I told the Fairy about making it through - V.Smith

I grew up handling my pain internally, I clinched my teeth , I held my breath hoping the burning I felt inside when I was out of air was the same burn I could give that same person , place, or thing that caused my pain. Most would say I was strange but I never let anyone get in my head, I quickly picked up the easiest skill to keep others from wanting to dig deeper and that skill was a Smile . oh man if i had not learned to smile who would I be , how far would the pain on my face have taken me, how many people would I have been able to bring into my life . I couldn't tell you because I didn't chance it , but I can speculate and honestly I would end up with only the pessimistic view of on the other side of me and what it could've brought into my life..But Guess what,.. .right when I formulate my thoughts of how that smile helped me out and bypassed many negative things I can only be real in saying that it hindered me as well.