Choice

Choices


Lately I have been reflecting a great deal on life paths and the journey that has brought me here. Most of my conclusions are common sense but sometimes life goes pear shaped and ceases to make any sense at all, common or otherwise.
I decided to begin by focusing on the black and white decisions that I have or haven't made that have definitely impacted my life in one way or another.

I have made my fair share of questionable decisions and I own them for better or worse, I accept that. And those decisions had consequences that shaped who I am today as they will continue to shape who I will become as time goes on. Some of those decisions were made for me when I was a child but that doesn't mean I can't decide to let all that go and move on now.

Truth to tell, I generally like who I am, although I did see my life unfolding a bit differently. And my children (those little lights that shine so brightly) may not have blessed my life if life had taken another course.

Every twist, turn, stairway and slide have taught me something about who I am; what I am capable of; the world and the people I share it with. While it may not be the life I thought I would live, I have lived, loved and learned. I have grown wiser, stronger and more capable as I have walked the longer, slower road.

As I move onward and upward, I don't leave the past entirely behind me because the places and people that I have known continue to play a part in my personal and professional growth. Without them I wouldn't be me.

And at every twist, turn, stairway or slide I have made the decision to step forward or backwards, to try and fail or take comfort in the safer devils that I know. So, now at this point in my life I face another set of choices and another uncertain trek.

I reflect upon this as I stand at this cross road and prepare to step. I take a deep breath and...