Fiercely

Fiercely I miss you
And feel myself falling
Slipping
Backwards and down
Tripping
upside-down
Until I've come right round
A full circle
Where desire smacks into reality
And the totality of the truth
Is enough to unravel me
I'm falling up in spite of gravity
The depravity of my humanity
Jumps out at me
Weakness fraught with want
I have the words but I can't let them go
I have the cards but I can't let them show
So I stay
Above dreams but below truth
The gray murky waters grow
And I dwell here
In the swell here
Ready to burst apart with want
Held together with distractions and glue
But nothing, none of it will do
I need you
I want you
And I need you to want me too