life's a joke

my life’s just one big joke,
that’s both pessimistic and optimistic, yo
some days i feel like i’m on top of the world,
and other days i feel like i’m gonna make myself hurl
rise and grace versus rage and fall
but fuck, man, i don’t know it all

i live for the moment,
and even when it’s long past i try to hold it
deathgrip on that one feeling,
even if my mind’s peeling
speaking of my mind,
got other shit in it lagging behind

one part hate, one part love
but the part of love just ain’t enough
hate makes one pretty irate
but love makes one feel really great

highblood as all fuck but i don’t give two shits
fuck that man i don’t even give one
red, blue, violet, yellow, purple
fuck man, we’re all jumping the same hurdles
take the fucking table and flip it
open up your “don’t give a fuck” kit
not giving in is a feeling of bliss
and even if the train you’re on crashes
it’s the best train wreck there’s ever fucking been

honestly, fuck
fuck me for being such a piece of shit
fuck you for being on my side
fuck everyone for giving me a drive
fuck it all for giving everything a hit

but when you take that blow
you don’t fall over, you fucking roll
take the pain as a reminder that you’re alive
because if you don’t you might lose your mind
and losing your mind is horrid
like eating cold fucking shit porridge

good and bad, chaos and order
man, that shit makes me chortle
all you’ve really got is what’s in your heart
turn your ambitions into a cart
drive that shit, dodge the bullets
because if you oppose the system they’ll look at you and say “cull it”