Friday heat

Usually I barely go out under the sun but that Friday afternoon was indeed unusual. It was 2:53PM as I walked down the alley out of my street, to a destination I have no idea of, but frequently gazing at my wrist watch to keep track on time. My heart was heavy and my thoughts were pregnant as I take the walk thinking of how a change in my life at this moment was going to derail my mindset towards certain circumstances I was able to get a hang on before now. I asked myself questions I could only answer sitting in the closet wetting my self In my own tears. It was clear, she left me for good, she had her own reasons. How selfish she was to know her decision was not what I needed at this moment but went ahead.
I got to the green park without realizing I had walked about two miles away from my home. I kept saying to myself "these were not reasons but just excuses to make herself think she would be better and happy without me" as I gestured with my fingers as If I were having a conversation with someone. I was sitting on a bench in the park when someone shouted my name.

"I heard my name" I said, still pointing a finger to my chest and turning round to figure out where the call came from. Immediately I got a glimpse of her and a young man having his arm around her hips as she walks comfortably in his arm. As they walk towards me, all I could see was them walking out from the horizon as my heart beat of a nauseating sight, not getting back to reality to notice they were just standing beside me with a smile on their faces. He stretch out his arm with a word that sounded like "hi" to my ears, I couldn't resist but to have my fingers curved round his accompanied with a smirk on my face. I was out of words as her interruption was what I needed at that moment. She drew back his hand and asked what I was doing here all alone, "am I not supposed to be with a lover in this park"? she asked with a smile as I stared into her eyes with dismay and silence was the perfect answer I could deliver.

"Well, we were about leaving the park" she said.
I watched as they walked off as it was obvious she was pulling him along to walk out of my sight. My attention was fully on him on how he got hold of her that I can't believe she left me for him. "I was so addicted to her" I said to myself as my heart bleed inside and my eyes turned red.
With no denial, have got everything this gentle man could offer her except I can't compare my figure with his muscular figure. But that can't be a factor for her to leave me I said pointing a finger to their direction looking away like I was having a conversation with an imaginary friend ready to listen and show remorse seeing me wallow in my own grieve.
But then I thought, she wanted to explore more and my world isn't just enough for her.