My Last Letter

I've been here for 19 years
I've been living in this place
shedding and creating so many tears

I've changed my hair and my name
And still no matter what I do
Everything still feels the same

I've switched schools, and changed friends
I've planned out my life
Only to one day I wish it ends.

I've wished upon the same full moon
I've looked up at the same starless sky
Still I don't change, and I don't know why.

I've looked around, still afraid
I sit still under the same shade
I wish upon a starless night
That one day someone would make it right

I fight, and fight, every single day
for the same difference in the same way
I pretend to change and I say I'm fine
but then my tears end up crossing the line

I hide and seek, then hide again
and that I have a true friend
and although you never seek
I know its because I seem so weak

But need I remind you that I am not
I've been far too nice to all you lot
I'm done following your petty rules
I'm standing around with all you fools

I'm walking out, and wishing you a happy time
While I work and work to figure out a rhyme
I'm telling you now, that this is going to end
my poems are my hearts, you were my friend.

So when you come back, paper in hand
I'll send you back while I enjoy the sand
because my words mean nothing
and now they seem to be something

And so I know your intentions aren't true
and this right here, is my last letter to you.